[ The repetition comes quietly as she faces way from him, eyes searching as she really processes the phrase. Then, she turns, defensive and practically recoiling as she pushes back to her feet, leaning onto one of her metal crutches. ]
You think I wanna go back there?
[ Her retaliation comes out sharply. There are a lot of things she misses from before she was unplugged. Coulson, Simmons, feeling like she was a part of something, feeling capable.
Having Fitz and May awake helps, but Fitz is a source of guilt (his insistence that the old world didn't really qualify because, philosophically speaking, none of what they did was real certainly doesn't help her guilt because she could have saved him from what happened, could have circumvented how he was hurt if she'd only been strong enough to let Ward die the first time), and May reminds her of all the things she'd worked hard and trained her body to do that she can't accomplish anymore.
But HYDRA? Her father, Ward, Whitehall, all of it. GH325 and Coulson's hypographia and her own weird immunity and the Diviner and whatever the hell happened in that temple to her and Raina? No. She doesn't miss that. She doesn't miss her destiny, or the people trying to sell it to her. She doesn't miss being betrayed and used and manipulated and lied to. ]
cw: hella spoilers
[ The repetition comes quietly as she faces way from him, eyes searching as she really processes the phrase. Then, she turns, defensive and practically recoiling as she pushes back to her feet, leaning onto one of her metal crutches. ]
You think I wanna go back there?
[ Her retaliation comes out sharply. There are a lot of things she misses from before she was unplugged. Coulson, Simmons, feeling like she was a part of something, feeling capable.
Having Fitz and May awake helps, but Fitz is a source of guilt (his insistence that the old world didn't really qualify because, philosophically speaking, none of what they did was real certainly doesn't help her guilt because she could have saved him from what happened, could have circumvented how he was hurt if she'd only been strong enough to let Ward die the first time), and May reminds her of all the things she'd worked hard and trained her body to do that she can't accomplish anymore.
But HYDRA? Her father, Ward, Whitehall, all of it. GH325 and Coulson's hypographia and her own weird immunity and the Diviner and whatever the hell happened in that temple to her and Raina? No. She doesn't miss that. She doesn't miss her destiny, or the people trying to sell it to her. She doesn't miss being betrayed and used and manipulated and lied to. ]